is anyone out there?

JAN. 17

Here we are. "Out there" for the world to admire and see. So sureal. I think that I would love to be able to upload pictures of the boys days to show to the world. Our boys. Didn't I always say I would be surrounded by boys? Nathaniel and Isaac keep us, oh, so busy. Today was dance class. Dancing Toes, to be exact. I didn't think we would make it there--at all--this morning, but I surprised us all and got us out the door. Natty woke up 1 & 1/2 hours early, and Isaac woke up all snorty and snotty 1 hour early... both in fine form and ready to go. I excitedly brought Isaac down to his new exersaucer so he could try it out (excited for the exersaucer--not excited that he was out of schedule and our dancing class hung precariously in the balance). It went well until Natty decided to help him bounce and shake (all fine and good--if he could consistently hold his head up). Isaac melted down. Then Natty melted down because Isaac melted down. I held it together and did not melt down too... I just sat and laughed. What else can a mother do? Inspite of on and off tears by both of them for the next 1 & 1/2 hours, we made it out the door to dance class. I paid the money... Natty will go. Natty had a b-l-a-s-t, but Isaac and I didn't. Isaac cried the whole time and I was back and forth with him to try to soothe him. Natty didn't miss a beat; quite literally. He danced and ran circles around everyone, all the while watching his full head o' hair bounce in the full-room mirrors. Mr. Narcicist himself. Wouldn't it be grand to love and admire yourself that much and that openly? Our class came to an end, we quickly loaded in the car, returned Nemo video to the library (a new favourite), and were home in a flash. Isaac was asleep as his head was hitting the mattress. Phew! Natty lasted until he needed to, and then was out like a light too. I am in the "hallowed" time of the afternoon. My time. Sometimes only 1/2 hour before Isaac starts fussing... sometimes (like today) around 2 whole hours to myself! I get giddy at the thought. I hope to be able to update every so often, and hope that you enjoy reading about our day-to-day adventures. Every day has something exciting, you just have to be open to seeing it that way.