The dreaded moment has come and gone. John, Paige and the twins are gone. Gone, gone, gone. We had a teary goodbye (which seemed to drag on the whole day) until they finally arrived at 4:30 for the final, final goodbye. My poor heart. It's bad enough for me to go through this thinking only of myself, but to know how it is going to affect Natty, with Paige being like a second-mother to him, crushes my heart into a pulpy mess.
I had to drive Natty by their house after they left as even though we just said goodbye, he asked to go to their house. The new people were there already. I'm not sure if he even got it then. It will be like someone kicking me in the stomach every time Natty asks to go to his Auntie Paige's (and it's multiple times a day). It's not that we are just family. We are best friends. How do you say goodbye to your best friends? How many times will I have to stop myself from automatically dialing her number just to chat (for the eighth time that day)? There go those damn tears again. What a draining day. Sleep will hopefully obliterate any thoughts or feelings. Until tomorrow. 
gone.
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Posted by Jodi at 10:21 p.m.
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yuck. i'm sorry. it's a lot to take in and adjust to all at once, for you and for little natty. it's the absolute worst thing to see your kid hurting. give him a big, wet kiss from india and me.
thanks. i'll send your kisses once natty feels better from his nasty, nasty cold. i'd hate for you to catch anything. : )
Gosh, Jod. It was like you were explaining what it was like for Steve and I to watch you and Dan pull away that summer you left us a block from where we shared so many laughs.
I'm sorry that you had to say goodbye. It's so beautiful that you got to experience and cement that closeness. Nothing will every take those memories away.
Except maybe alzheimers.
I love you, friend. I'm proud of you for taking these last few months and making the best of them. You have been such an example of resiliance.
Yeah, I remember that dreaded day too. Boy, life is sure full of its ups and downs, isn't it? I take comfort in the evidence that friends still remain close and important though distance comes between. : )
An example of resilience, eh? Hmm. Maybe just living in a constant state of denial, or something close to that. ; ) It's much easier to exist if you don't think.
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